i hate friday, xspecially when everybody going back to their hometown & leaving me all alone with anas arsyad, so dammm suck!!! makwa gonna be around but still she is very mobile, very workholic person, having programs, ceramah and lots of things that make her have to move all around and at da end, there will be me, all alone with anas arsyad... but still, alhamdulillah coz anas arsyad are there always with me :)

kak lyn do assk me, "awak tue masih ada anas. abis tue, bile awak tgl akak sorang, awak ada rasa bersalah tak?" i tak jawab pun soalan kak lyn nie, coz kalu i xplain mesti panjag lebar, then conflict will occur.. so kak lyn, if ur in my shoes, u will get da answers, emotionally ang physically abused... as being a single mother with a very hyper active child in the wikend & being left all alone is undescrible... walwallahualam

this wik, kak lyn balik besut, hasd balik seremban, shaz balik batu pahat... i n zurah yang dah berkeluarga je nie terpaksa tabahkan hati menghadapi semua nie.. zurah dah nk pindah melaka, i camner? ya allah, risau nye hati nie, tuhan sahaja yang tahu... sedih la... adoi, takdak mood lak....

yummyYUMyum!!!

hehehee... suke :p after lunch nga zurah, g bookstore, zurah nk beli barang wat teaching portfolio.. then, i beli novel, buat peneman diri di kala sepi :) i luv books + novels + reading materials... ~luv on da air

and for my dear little man, i bought him a drawing block + pencil colour... nanti kte main conteng2 yer anas arsyad deary... ni tdk, mama tanda paper, u amik pen, conteng2 ur body... aper2 je lah prince charming i yang sorang nie... moga2 anas arsyad jadi anak yang hardworking and luv books :)



hermmm. tetiba zurah nk balik kl.... entah, td hati dah gembira dah, ada kawan this wikend, tp tetiba zurah camgini lak, nk blk kelang.. td dh tanya, "naper zurah tak blk kelang?" zurah jwb,"tak blh lasak2, xblh travel" tetiba die nk blk kelang lak, die nk tumpang kak pah.. mungkin sebab naik kete, zurah berani lah balik kek kelang.. zurah ada ajak i ke umah die @kelang, tapi tak berhati perutlah i kalu ikut, she want to spend quality time with her hubby... ya allah, trus air mata mengalir, syahdunyer hati.. tp sapelah i nk halang zurah dr plg berjumpa hubby die? kejam btl i kalu cam gitu.. i tak de la marah zurah, cuma sedih dan sgt tipulah kalu i nie xsedih, x nangis, im not stone... sedih mengenangkan nasib diri nie, sampai bile begini... ya allah, hanya kau yang mengerti rasa dalam hati ini :( mungkin, sape yang tak pernah rasa ape yang i rase, mungkin tak paham, mungkin they will say, tapi, cubalah bayangkan seketika di tempat i... entah... ya allah, semuanya atas kuasa kau...
 
dah la i carik surat pindah tak jumpa.... bagai nk gile carik.. then tetiba teringat, musti ada dalam kotak barang2 ptk, kotak tue ada dalam office has, semalam bincang pasal proposal research has & lan... penin nyer...

anas arsyad, mama nak pulanglah, wikend nie, u gonna be witth me... berilah mama kekuatan utk menghadapi semua nie, anas arsyad jadilah anak yang behave ye sayang.... mama rasa dah x kuat nak menghadapi situasi nie lagi, mama dah x setabah dulu anas arsyad... mama sangat sedih sayang... iskiskisk...
i gonna be so dammm stress!!!!